Losing it… or lost it already?

What is it about being a mom that has our brains totally fried? I used to be able to remember details about things. Now I can’t even remember what I ate for lunch! Clearly our mind is cluttered with too much, and now we can’t even retrace the day or recall who we met over the weekend.

 It must be a general “mommy thing” – and if you’re a mom whose brain’s still working… watch out, it won’t be long! Sheza and I were just discussing this today. Some times I feel really handicapped. Surely this can’t be normal! I used to pride myself in remembering birthdays, people I met a long time ago, conversations, you name it! I never lost anything, always knew where things we kept… even when they were kept in the wrong place! For someone who was SO organized in thought, this new “mommyness” comes as such a shock to my daily existence. I’ve started forgetting where I’ve put things, who I was supposed to call, I’ve forgotten doctor’s appointments, in general forgotten the small things that used to keep my life in working order… and don’t even get me started on groceries! Somehow I can make the most useful list, and then come home and STILL not have everything we need!

 It’s frustrating. Almost makes me understand old age and how we feel at a loss at our own hands. Sometimes I can’t contain myself. It feels like I’m “me” but not the same me. Omair doesn’t really get it, because he doesn’t realize how helpless this makes me feel. He’ll often joke and say… “As long as you don’t forget me and the kids, I think we can manage”. But seriously, we can laugh about it once in a while, but for me, it feels like things are crumbling away at my fingertips. No matter how much I want to remember things like I used to… I just can’t.

I wonder if it will ever come back. Or have I fallen into the depths of “memory loss for moms” forever…